Changed URL

I moved on,

to: http://gohweihao.tumblr.com

Password is my favourite Pastamania dish with spacing.

See you there (virtually).

fuck st. john.

i cracked.
i realised everything.
i realised everything will stay the same.
i will still be treated like crap.

i lost all interest in it.
i try so hard.
but who cares?
no one bothers to remember their appointments with me.
no one respects me.
no one likes me.
no one cares about me.

i'm not stupid.
i always know.
that even as a comp team instr.
they'll doubt my capabilites and experience.
so fuck it.
i'll just leave then.

it's going to be a lonely journey.
and i am not ready to take it up.

if you want to talk anything about sjab with me ever again.
kill that little thought.

Just take a gun,
point it to your temple,
and never worry.

I was happy that NC won 3rd in nationals and 1st for footdrill.
I'm convinced that they have the skills.
Two times can't be wrong.

Seeing them win, kinda ignites a spark of hope deep within me.
Makes me miss the good old days.
Makes me miss the hunger to win.
Makes me wanna do it all over again.

I really, really, don't mind joining competition again.
But, I wanna join to win.
Thats my greatest goal.
I wanna join the greatest team.
I wanna be proud of our achievement.
I wanna be able to do a perfect case.
I wanna be able to execute perfect footdrill.

I wanna wow the crowd.

I dunnoe, I really wanna join.
But I want alvin and chongyou to join as well.
I want the old aa.
I'm only confident in the old aa.
Me, ccy, alvin and jeffrey. (excld the 60kg hdb tyvm)

I guess it's impossible.
They won't come back.
Their tired.

Maybe i should be just content with training out a champion team.
I must find a way to extinguish this hope.
I must.

Bye............

Babo.

At the rate I'm writing crap about unrequited love,
I can write a novel.

Wish me success.

Whoever said loving someone is beautiful is a sadist.
You call endless agony beautiful?
Idiot.

I hate you, let me go.

Wei Hao is officially a bunch of emoshit.
You'll never know,
because when I see you,
I brush away that flicker of hurt in my eyes.
I'm a good actor,
because I don't want to lose you.

I hate you, let me go.


Blogging is fun when your super bored.
I feel better when I rant here.
I pity this blog, only used when I am sad.
Other than that, it is abandon.
I should start posting happy stuff.
But life sucks,
nothing seems to cheer me up anymore.
I'm old and cynical.

It's okay if no one understands this,
I just really, really, need to get this out.

I'm going insane.
Am i that insignificant to you?
I hate you.
Because your life still goes on,
while i am left to pick up the broken pieces of my heart.

How foolish.
U know that as long as I love you,
I'll continue down this path of self destruction.
But I just keep going and going.
I still run when I see you.

I should be happy.
That I can live for myself and myself alone.
But i am not.
Because, I don't feel complete.
I need that piece of my heart that I gave to you.
Where you monopolise it with your smile,
your scent,
and my happily ever after.

The only way out is to forget.
Because I would rather live a thousand lifetimes with you as my friend than one without you.
You'll never know.
Because I'll never tell.
I;m a good actor.
When I see you.
I brush the flicker of hurt away from my eyes.
You won't see it.
I won't let you.

I need to forget.
Will someoe help me?
If only.
If only everything is different.
Maybe I will be a bit braver?
Maybe I will be happy now.

It's been 7 months.
When will it stop.

I hate you,
let me go...

Movie Quotes

A sudden urge to blog about the memorable movie quotes.
Writing this, I can refer to it when I forget any of them.

"Mama always said life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."
- Forrest Gump, 1994
(The only turn-off is MY used this quote before. Copycat.)


"Love means never having to say you're sorry."
- Love Story, 1970

"You had me at 'hello'."
- Jerry Mcguire, 1996
(Technically I only read the story on wiki because it stars the icky Tom Cruise. But this is a really good line.)

"Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer."
- Godfather 2, 1974
(Please don't believe it if anyone say they came up with this line. -.- It's a line from the classic Godfather. Shall watch it after O's.)

"You know what the scariest thing is? To not know your place in this world. To not know why you are here. It is awful. Now that we know who you are , I know who I am. I'm not a mistake."
Unbreakable, 2000

"Jack: Where to miss?
Rose: To the stars."
-Titanic, 1997
(This would've been a perfect movie if Rose did not get married. It's only right that she lives lonely forever and her heart will only think of Jack.)

... Suddenly pangs of fatigue is radiating through my body.

Bye, I shall go do something that requires less effort.

It's a Sunday

Hello!

Haha, I decided that there is no use hiding the previous post.
I am at a point when I just don't really care about what others think.
I have enough friends.
I don't need anymore acquaintances.
I just don't have enough day and paitence to patronise all of them.
I'm not mean, just unfriendly I guess.

So saturday was pretty screwed up.
In my opinion.
I made some mistakes I wish I can correct.
Ah, just when I thought things are getting better.
However, I had fun "kidnapping" Jeffrey away from PD.
Haha, we played some nonsense, bought some nonsense and talked a lot of nonsense.
To the boy that called me an uncle, I'm going to break your legs.
LOL.
No lah.
Maybe :x

It's incredible how me and Jeffrey can just sit at pastamania and just talk for 2 straight hours.
HAHA, I officially convinced him that Aglio Olio is very, very nice.
God-sent cheap and affordable delicacy.
Aglio Olio ftw.
I respect Aglio Olio so much that I even caps the first letter as if I am talking about a real person.

Today was not productive again.
Wei Hao ah, Wei Hao, when are you going to study?
Do I have to force you by tying you to the chair.
(It's not weird to talk about yourself in a second person POV!)
I slept through most of today.
I like napping, because it feels like I trade hours for days.
Sometimes I can wake up feeling hours have passed when I only slept for half an hour.
The feeling is great.
I don't know why.
I dreamt a lot today.
But I can't remember most of it. =\

Afterwards I have to wake up to go for a musical/play/aerobics show.
I really don't know what it is.
A combination of all I guess.
It's called Viva &#*&(%#*^(%# and it is showed at Resort World.
It is rather mediocre so I didn't bother remembering or googling the name.
The only perks is it is filled with angmohs.
But I cannot see their faces.
So I guess that made it even suckier.
I felt like sleeping.
And I couldn't sms cause I was too paranoid someone will come scold me.
LOL.

Well, at least I got to see Resort World.
When I first reached and saw the casino,
all i saw was gambling addicts, old people and foreign workers.
I have ZERO respect for gamblers because they cannot stop doing something they know will absolutely lead them to nothing but dismay.
I got happier when I got to see Universal Studio.
The facade only to be exact, but still, I'm happy.

Than went to eat.
AHHHH, i ate fattening food.
D:
Than the rest of the day is just mundane...


I'm happier nowadays, because I'm starting to learn how to be content just seeing you happy.
I don't care if it is requited or not, just as long as I see you smile.
It is a lesson I have to learn since this is not something I can chuck it deep into the abyss of my heart and try to forget.

Wei Hao ah, you better start studying if you wanna open that Wei Sheng Clinic of yours! HAHA.
I'll work hard towards it! :D

Cheers.
Hope your life is better than mine.