Competition Team

Hopeless...
I don't even have a team to join even though i want to.
I hope this gets settled soon.
I really wanna settle down and train.
I really wanna improve.
I need to improve.
But at this rate, I'll be happy if i don't deprove.
Truth to be told, i rather trained then to train.
Stupid.
I have to handle so much stuff and yet no one seems to know.
I even have to beg people to come training.
How pathetic is that?
I can't be bothered anymore.
Nicholas sir is right.
I should just concentrate on those who want to learn.
How i hope i can just be a trainee instead of a trainer.
Corps life is hard enough.
I don't want to continue suffering OUTSIDE of it.
Damn...

FML.

INCONSIDERATE

When is it ever inconsiderate to wear singlet and underwear (yes, the short were THAT short) out when clearly you have nothing but fugliness & acne to show?
I had to use 50 bottles of eye mo when i reach home yesterday.
That is the extend of damage done by looking at him.
I am currently deaf now from the laughter of SeeDuck Girls.
That inconsiderate guy was flirting with them and they laughing away with their unattractive & piercing laughter.
Girls nowadays have very weird taste for man, oh sorry, i forgot, their gorillas.

"Flash your books!"
"Take out your books!"
"Come on, don't be shy, take out your books!"
"Hold your books up high!"
When you have an imagination, all these lines are super funny.
This instr. keep telling SeeDuck Girls School these lines.
I can't help but laughoutloud.
Well, i'm sure they will be willing to do if given the opportunity.

An advice from the wise (me), wear 5 layers & don't walk home alone.

Ciao.

Emotionless

You guys can hate me.
That makes my work even easier.
This is how I do things, this is my job.
Yes, I scolded inapropriately.
But did i fabricate anything?
My way is i don't sugar coat things for you guys.
Reality is reality.
So you guys might as well don't waste your time hating me and just get used to it as you'll be working with this SOB for 1 year.
Correcting mistake is my job.
I turn up, train, correct mistakes, and go home.
Bad mouthing me won't change a hoot.
As we most probably will not be friends after ROD.
So why would i try so hard to be friends with you.
My true friends are those that understand what i am doing.
Scold me a jerk, an ass, a fucker, a son of a bitch.
Nothing can hurt me anymore.
I'm just doing my job.
(:

Curious, Curious People

Er,
Why do people have two blogs?
One private and one for public.
Isn't that redundant?
And it, to me, is damn bothersome.
Imagine having to post twice.

There's no use blogging about what you feel.
Cause you know your so gonna tell your good friends tommorrow.
So might as well just tell.
LOL.

Thats all.

School

School seems so much more enjoyable nowadays.
I think it's thanks to the fact that we only have 7 subjects.
It's so much less stressful!
And, whats best is i enjoy most of my subjects.

Normally, i will only score in subjects that i have passion for.
Maths to be is boring and dead, it doesn't tingle my interest at all.
Thats why, i suck at it.
Chinese too.

School seems to pass so fast.
I still remeber during secondary 1, when our chinese lesson was as 'long' as school itself.
But now, lessons seem to end in a blink of an eye.
Especially Biology.

I can't believe, its already thursday.
Can't wait for the weekends.
I want to go out!!!
I becoming zai nan already,
everyday stay at home watch TV or movies.
I watch way too much TV.
And when i am not watching TV, i am using the computer to watch shows.
I have a very boring life. LOL.

K, this was a boring post to blow the dust away from my blog.
Bye.

What happened.

My life revolves around one thing.
S-J-A-B.
I used to treat it like my life, now it is forced onto me.
Why you may ask?

Well, I used to have a lot of good friends from St. John.
Chong You, Madeline, and Mardhiyyah.
But i lost all of them for reasons i regret and i don't want to say.

Because i am the Deputy Commander, any decision i make seems to offend somebody.
But now, i've really lost all sense of compassion.
I don't care about their feelings anymore.
Cause if i do, all i get is their attitude.
So, why the fuck would i fucking give a damn anymore?
Hate me, i'll get used to it.
See, SJAB has make me into an anal S.O.B.

I used to love going to St. John.
I get to meet my very very (ex) good friends.
Of course i miss them, but what to do?
Its my fucking fault.
I was completely aware of what i was doing was sabotaging the relastionship.
Why did i do it?
If i didn't, i'll still have my best friend with me.
See, i am an S.O.B.

The cadet years in St. John is all about been tortured.
But you know what?
I fucking love it.
Cause we did it as a squad with everyone as equal.
Our leaders were clear, they were the NCOs.
We did not have deep relastionship with them, so even if they treat us like shit, we still respected them cause their our sr.
It is much more different as a committee.
We are not happy when we are asked to do stuff.
Cause we feel we are equal.
So fuck it.

Its so difficult now.
We act like we don't know each other.
We purposely hurt each other.
Why?

I want to be a cadet again.
I want to be close with my squad again.
I don't want the whole committee to hate me.
I want a time machine.
I want change.
I want my friends back.

I am tired...

Eye Opener

Wow, its been so long since i've seen a rude Singaorean.
When i was taking the LRT, we arrived at South View.
There was this little (hardly) boy around Primary four who shouted at another boy.
That is one of the weirdest and most gay thing to do in public la.
Shoving your head into dirt is less embarassing.

The first thing that came to my mind is:
"FREAK!".
And of course i was right or i won't be bloging about it.
So he just came in, pushing away the people at the door.
And he was so sweaty!
He must had a real hard time coming out of the elevator.
So everyone just stared at him.
Him probably been used to it or his just a total moron, ignored.

He just stared at the screen thingy, biting his thumb.
It isn't cute btw.
Cause he is overweight and sweaty.
Then for dunnoe what reason,
the diva who think he is God just pushed an auntie to pass him.
Then he push a guys hand away to go to the other side.
He just kept pushing and pushing.
I wonder where he gets his manners.

Its been so long since i saw a rude person.
And i never expected it to be in someone so young.
Whats happening to our younger generations?
I only learned the word "fuck" in primary 5.
But i used it only in secondary 1.
Probably to Nicholas cause he keep calling me fat LOL.
But nowadays, students as young as primary 1 are already wah lao-ing away and fuck-ing away.
I don't mean the fuck-ing literally.

Wow, what will happen to our children.
Will they smoke pot at the tender age of 4?
I wonder what the parent nowadays are doing.
If i were a parent, i will preserve my children's innocence as long as possible.
Innocence is the best gift in our lives.
But many of have hardly any left.
So i will make sure my children enjoy the beauty of innocence for a long, long time.

As they say,
"Ignorance is Bliss."

The Wind That Shakes the Barley

Hi.

Pictures will come when i am not so lazy.
Hehe.

Recently, out of boredom, i watched a movie:

"Ireland, 1920. Damien and Teddy are brothers. But while the latter is already the leader of a guerrilla squad fighting for the independence of his motherland, Damien, a medical graduate of University College, would rather further his training at the London hospital where he has found a place. However, shortly before his departure, he happens to witness atrocities committed by the ferocious Black and Tans and finally decides to join the resistance group led by Teddy. The two brothers fight side by side until a truce is signed. But peace is short-lived and when one faction of the freedom-fighters accepts a treaty with the British that is regarded as unfair by the other faction, a civil war ensues, pitting Irishmen against Irishmen, brothers against brothers, Teddy against Damien." -IMDB

It is a really good movie.

And it is really interesting as you learn about what used to happen in Ireland.

I knew nuts until i watched this movie.

It is irrtating at first though.

Cause they have really thick Irish accent.

But,

you'll learn to live with it.

And Cillian Murphy is as good as usual.

You can throw any role at him and he can give an outstanding performance.

I like actors because of their acting and their personality.

They can be horribly disfigured and have only 1 eye.

But if they can give an Oscar worthy performance, then count me in.

Cillian Murphy is an interesting person.

He only gives interviews about his work and never about his personal life.

He does not appear on talk shows etc.

I respect this very much.

Because by doing this, it means less media coverage for him.

That is why most of you probably never hear of him.

IMHO, this is very very respectable.

I especially dislike actors who only sell their looks.

IMHO, their pathetic.

This actors normally have effed up personal life too

Some eff themselves up ust to get coverage.

No matter how mess up they make themselves to get coverage,

without talent, their careers just cannot last.

They'll eventually be forgotten.

Only talent can leave a mark in this industries.

Timeless classics like Titanic will never be forgotten.

Why?

Because of Kate Winslet unbeatable talent.

Why I am blogging about this is because i was reminded of this movie by Social Studies lessons.

Cause we're currently learning about this.

Here Rui Xuan, something positive.

TskTsk.

Bye.

Oh ya, MIO still suck.

Nincompoop product.

Mio allows you to:
"Enjoy unlimited local calls from mobile and home phone, mio also offers wireless internet surf and digital home connectivity for future services."
Bunch of no good liars.
The piece of shit product is only beneficial as nutirents for plants.

The genious piece of mechanism tells me i am connected.
But my IE browser says otherwise.
Then i go reconnected and then it works.
For a few friggin' minutes.
Then it crash on me again.
Only to have me reconnect.
And this happens every friggin' time i use the computer.
Which is a lot by the way.

How i wish i could flush the MIO down the toilet bowl.

DIE MIO, DIE.

12/07

It was the the chinese and malay performance today.
Met up with marissa and engyew at like 1130.
I thought we were the only 3 morons that met so early.
But everyone else met at around this time.

We decided to eat pizza hut.
Well me and engyew did.
Skinny marissa ate ice cream only.
Shes afriad she'll grow fat all of a sudden and be unable to fit into her dress.
Skinnier engyew ate as much as me and he is still hungry. -.-
I hate him.

At 1300 most of M2 met in LJS.
I was koping fries.
I love free food. ;D
Then saw carlyna.
LOL, she wear like almost same thing as me.
Great, magnificent, wonderful, beautiful, clever, and superb minds think alike.

Then we went arcade.
We came up with an ingenious plan on how to play for free.
But hanyan never comply. D;
I should've tried it.
But i'll most probably end up in a lawsuit.

At 1400 we went to wait for the divas.
LOL, dunnoe why her majesty so long then come.
When they really did come, we went RP.

Almost everyone have same temperature la.
Wonder if the machine really works.
Then went in wait for the show to start.

It first started with a fight scence between Xin Miao and Yu Hao.
Totally pointless.
YH wanted something, XM (predictably) don't comply.
So they fight.
Then it ended with them praising each other.
Huh?
I totally caught no ball(s).

Then it was the malay one.
Man, syazana is such a good actor.
It was okay.
But i heard the story too many times le.
Not fresh la basically.
And the fight scence they should have just used low blow.
Their kukus were so expose and vulnerable.
Whoever use low blow could've won easily.

Then it was the chinese one.
Story very cliche.
So not fresh also.
Not much to elaborate.
But khooee was a very good actress.

IMHO they've trained so hard.
Then they only perform this one time.
Its very stupid and pointless.
Waste their efforts.

I wasted my weekends again.
My saturday was sleep till sunday day.
I was complaining how bored i was when i have so much homework.
Then i told myself that i'll do it today.
Man, i'm to gullible.
To believe a sloth like me will do homework.
I better start on my geog soon.
Felt so bad when miss wu never say me even though i never hand up any homework.
Weird right.
I rather get scolded though.
And MUST finish english.
Miss phua seems so piss nowadays.
Poor her.

K, go away, the post has ended.