Meh.

Long overdue post about ROD.
It is a milestone in my life, so I decided that I should blog about it, for memory sake.

The previous day, the stupid me just couldn't sleep.
I kept waking up like every 2 hours.
I really don't know why, but I was friggin' excited, because, I know my life was about to change.
A part of me was about to be ripped out.

So, the day starts with me meeting up with Mardhiyyah, Chong, and Rui Xuan.
When I went into Mac, I WAS SHOCKED!
My first though when I saw the mysterious short-haired figure was "IRNA!?"
I really thought she came to see our ROD and met Chong You on the way.
In the end, it's Mardhiyyah.
It was well, really, really amusing.

I had a really good time.
It's the first time I really slow down and just soak in every moment. (especially bouncing balls)
I noticed, we're so familiar with each other,
that even in moments of silence,
it isn't akward,
it's comfortable.
I'll miss the times just sitting there and talking.
I really, really will...

Lala, than when we go take bus, I found out something funny.
All your juniors pretend that they didn't see you.
But! I know your there.
Just say wave and say hi.
I have a lot of interest in food, but I don't like human meat.

When we reached school we saw the Sec 2 boys talking with Benjamin.
LOL, the rest of the Sec 4s joined them but i felt uncomfortable.
I'm actually very anti-social.
I don't like hanging out with people I don't know.
I don't like feeling uncomfortable.
It isn't I don't like you guys.
I just won't know what to say to you guys.
I kind felt bad, cause I was jerk-ish for not saying hi to you guys.
It was akward...
But HI!

Than we were split into our groups.
I was a group with Rui Xuan and Jeffrey.
Ahhhh, sorry ah Jeffrey.
It's not I don't want talk to you but talk to Rui Xuan only.
But it's because I never see or talk to you for so long already.
I should've talked to you more, you looked lonely =x
But I'm glad it got better at the end.

It's a bore to talk about the events.
But i really regret not taking more pictures!!!
I'm really happy with the Sec 2 present.
No offense but I was really expecting soft toys and such.
However, hold and behold!
I got F.T. Island file and handphone strap and 2PM nametag and photocard.
I'm really happy.
Their all really cool present.
I guess I must thank Jeffrey for suggesting the presents.
But I was happiest with the t-shirt.
Thanks for thinking I am so skinny.
I will treasure every message!
But some of you still owe me message.
Find me to write it!!!

I feel recognised for once.
That after all my efforts, people actually recognised them.
I didn't expect so many presents.
I really, really didn't.
And the good feedback I recieved here and there.
Finally, I thought.
After I risked my life (2PM song :D)

Well, Chong You is still the most poor thing.
One day ccy, one day.
You'll be recognised as well.
The world may be harsh but it isn't blind.
Don't give up!


Anyways, on another unrelated note, today was the first day of school.
It was fun.
Thanks to Eng Yew, Syazana, Joey, 'Amirah, and Marissa.
... and Marissa.
We finally talked.
It was super, super weird at first.
I was really worried of what I said.
It was like threading on fine ice.
I can't mess up again.
I'm happy.
I forgot how happy it was to talk to you.
I really, really enjoyed myself.


It sucks.
I thought I will forget you after 19 days in europe of complete isolation.
But i can't.
I'm like a soldier and I am too heavily scarred.
I should've stayed strong and stay behind the frontlines.
But I couldn't.
The first shot was fired when I opened my heart.
The volley of bullets rained down on me than.
Your smile (the second shot)
Your caringness (the third)
Your friendliness (the forth)
All I could do was stand there.
When I realised I was too deeply screwed as I was no longer the master of my own emotions.
I was too heavily wounded to retreat.
I need to forget.
I need to live my own life.

FML.